I asked a classmate of mine to be a guest blogger for me. She read my book and she had some very strong emotions about me back in the day!! Love Raw and Realness!!! Enjoy!!!
Flashback to 1998, I was voted “Most Dependable” of our class. SHE was voted “Prettiest Eyes.” Pft… prettiest everything! SHE could have any guy she wanted at the drop of a dime. In fact, the reputation SHE held was that she WOULD have any guy at the drop of a dime, or anything they would give her. I was the big girl that guys never looked twice at, so I was EXTREMELY envious. I mean, even the guy I was crushing on back then, asked if I could introduce him to HER! SHE was outspoken and loud. I was not. I was the “good Christian girl.” SHE was um… not. I struggled to even get a guy to look at me once, they would not stop staring at HER. SHE loved it! I could tell! SHE loved being what all the girls wanted to be and all the guys wanted to “have.” SHE loved to party and drink and no matter how big of a fool she made of herself the guys seemed to love her more. UGH! I HATED HER! I hated Jessica!
Fast forward some to graduation night. Somehow, three “unpoplular” girls (me included) ended up at the after graduation party. There were so many people (kids) there. The music was LOUD! Somehow, among all those people Jessica found us! Ugh! Here we go! She came stumbling over with a wine cooler in her hand. She was clearly intoxicated. Her breath reeked of alcohol.I thought, “I could get drunk on her breath alone!” She yelled, “O my GOD!!! You are at a PARTY! HEY GUYS!!! LOOK!!! Aren’t you suppose to be good girls? Aren’t you a CHRISTIAN?” One of my friends grabbed a wine cooler and took a big swig. Jessica flipped out. “Oh my God!! They drink! They drink! Did you guys all see that?!” I may have taken one sip and as soon as she stumbled her way back to a group of guys, we left. We were there a total of 5 minutes at the most. That was long enough to figure out I still did not like her, maybe even less now. The hate in me thought “One day she will get it! This lifestyle will bite her right in the tush!”
It was just a few months later when I saw her again. It looked as though the hate in me was right. I was with two friends at a movie theater. As we were leaving, Jessica walked up. Well, what was left of her. She was a mess! She smelled terrible. She could barely stand up right. She did recognize us, although she was barely recognizable. She was wearing a baby-doll dress and had spilled mustard all down the front. Her hair was oily and messy. She had sores on her face. She was just a shell of herself. For the first time I was not envious at all! In fact, I was consumed with so much hate, I did not even care about her. I thought she had finally gotten what she deserved!
However, God… Oh our Heavenly Father, you see, HE knew! He had GREAT plans for her! HE knew she would bring hundreds if not thousands to Him through her future testimony. And, if you would have told me at that moment, at the movie theater, that I, Rachel, would one day be writing a blog for Jessica, about HER transformation through Christ. I would have thought YOU were on drugs! Thank God, I was WRONG!
Rachel Dickerson (guest blogger)
Much love Jessica Youngblood
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